(2/3)“The depression is a feeling of being in a long dark tunnel all by myself and there is no light and all I want is that feeling to end. The feeling is strongest at night. Last Friday it was so strong that I started to panic. I took my phone I googled for answers. Eventually I found a number which you can call if you are dealing with a suicide attempt. A volunteer picked up the phone and we talked for a while. His voice was calm and he was friendly. For the first time in a long time I felt as if someone cared about me. What I remember most about our conversation is that he told me that it was okay to cry. Nobody has ever said to me that it is okay to cry and it made me feel relieved. On Tuesday night that feeling came back stronger than ever. I was sitting on my bed with a bottle of wine in my hands and more than 100 pills in my lap but somehow I didn’t take them. I remembered a song my mentor emailed me. He sent me ‘The greatest love of all’ by Whitney Houston. I felt a bit more strength and I cried for hours. I emailed my doctor to tell him that I could not wait for 12 weeks to get help. I wrote him that I still have a lot of dreams and I want to make something out of my life but if I don’t get help soon I don’t think I can do this any longer. The next day my doctor called and he immediately arranged an appointment with a team of psychiatrist.”

(3/3)“Even though I want to get better I’m also scared of getting out of this depression. It feels like it became a part of me. Getting better means I have to start living again and I have forgotten how to do that. I used to be a positive girl who loved life. I remember I could enjoy small things like the sound of the wind or seeing the first narcissus of spring. Last spring, I saw all of that but I didn’t feel happiness, I felt nothing. It’s going to take a long time before I’m better. I’m taking baby steps but I really hope that next spring I will feel a tiny bit of that happiness again.”

“I guess everywhere in the world people love money but in Switzerland where i’m from, people love love love money!”

“I manage to get myself through art school by serving coffee by day and pouring cocktails by night.”

“I’m getting so sick of hearing Right-wing politicians talk about that we should leave the European Union and close our borders. They spread fear and they make people believe as if these options are realistic which they aren’t. The reality is that we are in this together and together we have to make it work.”

“I want to become an archaeologist because I like digging up bones, which is a little scary but also super exciting at the same time!”