(2/2)“For my own safety I would never ride my motorcycle at night but one time it took me longer to get to my destination. I ended up riding in the dark in a dangerous area. The road was full of holes and stopping would be even more dangerous. I was scared but there was a voice inside my head saying that if I would survive this experience it would make stronger. I managed to control myself mentally by slowly repeatedly saying to myself inside my helmet: ’‘Just few more kilometeres left and you will be fine. You can do this.” and I could.“

“I just simply think I’m not made for the school system. At school you do things because the teacher tells you so. When I have a certain freedom I end up being way more productive. Take my act for example. I started about a month ago and whenever I feel like it I perform on the street. It is something I love to do and that is why sometimes I can practise for hours. I’m starting to get the hang of it. I have been going to school for the past 13 years of my life so when I’ll finish high school I don’t think I’’ll go to University.”“So what is it you wanna do when you finish?”“Work on my new act, be free and learn how to survive.”

“In high school I was bullied very badly by a group of seven boys and one girl. They always asked me why I didn’t dress normally or why I listened to strange music. At some point they made up a rumor that I had said something racist. They waited for me after school and while I tried to explain that I was no racist, they threw me on the ground and kicked me in my face. An eyewitness pressed charges against them but nothing ever came out of that. Two years later two of them showed up in my class and pretty soon the bullying started all over again. They said they would stab me with a knife and throw me under a train. This time I pressed charges against them. When the police came to my school the principle claimed that I was the one who had provoked the situation. At some point one of their friends thought it would be fun to punch me in the face but this time I didn’t put up with it anymore so I grabbed him by the neck. At that very moment a teacher walked in and I was suspended from school. I went to another school and changed my attitude. I didn’t want to be bullied again so I developed an extremely aggressive attitude. Which is strange cause that’s not the way I am at all.

“She is Israeli and I’m half Dutch and half Hungarian. We went to the same international school in Bosnia. We were never close friends until most of our common friends went abroad during the holidays. Both of us were bored at home so she asked me to go on a trip with her. We decided to hitchhike from our hometown Mostar to Sarajevo. It’s about 80 kilometers but it took us more than 14 rides to get to there. Honestly it didn’t matter because we were on a adventure. During that trip we became close friends and we experienced so much. One of the highlights was when we hiked up a mountain. At the beginning of the trail we had two options. we could either take the stairs or actually climb the mountain by foot which would take twice as long. We did not need to think about it. Why take the stairs if you can actually climb the mountain.”

“The birds teach me to reconnect with nature. Most of us neglect our relationship with Mother Nature. We are too distracted trying to own her. Meanwhile we feel guilty and think that we are destroying her but we couldn’t be more wrong. She is a strong force who feeds us and gives us oxygen. She can live without us but we can’t live without her so the only thing we are destroying is ourselves.”
“If you could talk to her, what would you say?”
“Mama, I love you!”

“Having a child was the last thing on my mind. I have always been very focussed on my studies and as a student I had many extra jobs so my life was very chaotic. While working on my thesis something inside of me changed and I realized I wanted to have a baby. I thought it would take time to get pregnant because I had been on birth control since I was a teenager but within a few weeks I was pregnant. Sometimes I still can’t believe that I have put this tiny human is into this world. I had to put my studies on hold but I’m still planning to finish it next year. My timing wasn’t perfect but honestly I don’t think it ever is. ”