(½)“Two years ago, on New Years eve my entire life changed. I was 19, studying and I had just moved in with my boyfriend. Together with a group of close friends and my boyfriend we went to a party to celebrate the new year. Everyone was doing some kind of drugs that night but I planned to stay sober. However some people suggested to try 4fmp, a designer drug which is kind of known as a ’‘safe XTC”. I was convinced to try it. A few hours after I took the drugs I started to feel unwell. I was seeing black spots and I was no longer able to communicate properly. My boyfriend took me to the first aid post. When they realized I had used drugs they told me to go home and sleep. The next morning when I woke up I got out of bed and fainted. My boyfriend immediately called an ambulance and I was brought to the hospital. I don’t really remember much of what happened after that. When I woke up the next day I couldn’t feel the right side of my body anymore and when the doctor came in I realized something was terribly wrong.“

(1/3) ‘’I remember he promised to come over for my birthday one time but he never showed up. My father was addicted to drugs and sometimes we wouldn’t hear from him for months. My mother raised my brother, sister and me all by herself. Since I was the eldest, I felt really responsible for my siblings. As a child I would often go to the library. There I discovered fantasy and black magic books which became my escape from reality. I was a smart kid but once puberty came along I became rebellious. I felt misunderstood by the adults around me and I remember being angry all the time. When I turned seventeen my mother was no longer able to handle me. I was doing drugs, I would skip classes and I would fight with my siblings a lot. One day after a huge fight with my little brother my mother said enough and she kicked me out. From that moment l was pretty much on my own..“